counting , onetwothree

cant wait for this !!!!!!!!!

hello school !!!

today was a last day for me before im going back to my boarding school . haishh , my brain will get a lot of pain after this , trying to score A's for my mid year exam on May . my mom have warned me to show my good behaviors at school , so that my name will not in blacklist again again and again so that , my lovely PK HEM will not trying to aim me for something , i hate to be one of the naughty student . but i love to act naughty . ahahahaaha stressing during my school weeks with so many homeworks , roomworks , doormworks and many more . hope that time can running fast than it can be . haisssshh , SPM SPM .

i miss my bieber ;(

well it seems almost 2 monts we have been together ya ALIFF AZAMI . but we have been through so many things together . yaa , its hard for me to say this . it was really really harded for me to accept you , to love you like i were in love before . but bie , it doesn't mean that i do not want you , i wanna leave you , just give me some more time , and i'll swear that ill never hurt you anymore , never ever ;( ,..

the best week ever

the best week ever
O . U . T . S . I . D . E . R

best best best , well kena gantung sekolah . ahaha no need to regret for this , can spend my whole time at home , lepaking plus smoking after school , calling others without feeling worries that ill kantoi with that fucking MPP . yeah , on thursday will be held the sukan tahunan , cant wait for it , got paper physics , add math , chemistry . thanks teachers for giving me G .

raa , who are you ?

it was hurted and worse when we cant describe our own self . do not know why you were born to become a human being , run away from any thunder that can burning you up . try to find what the real thing that we want , we want it for , how ill get it . it was triple pain when everyone also especially your own family , friends , cousins , father , mother , brothers , n sisters , do not understand you , not try to be close to you , closer n closest . they said they love me , they care , concern about me , but why it was hard for them to understand me . figure me out . try to touch me , try to hold me , try to hug me , i've no body that i can trust , that i can feel very very very safe with , sometimes i regret FOR everything that had happened to me , like it was a black shadow behind me , being paranoid , afraid of my own self , i was trying to stop hurting others feeling , break my promises , but it will be under my own self control , im not a perfect person , the words that can describe my self are , IM A LOSER , I LACK OF LOVE .

the empty heart

well , it's really hurted . when we crush on someone but he's belong to somebody , do not want to break them but it was double pain when see their happiness . being love is very wonderful thing but being unlove makes the world worse . things going bad while you are happily ever after . stop being not understanding quite tuff , but please stop trying to be close to me like you do not know my heart's beating superduper fasssy . while far away from me , there was someone bleeding , waiting for the answers . im not , im sorry , i cant , I DO NOT LOVE YOU .